I love to read, but I have a small confession to make.
I like to peak at the last few pages of a story first. Knowing how the story ends allows me to enjoy the journey. If I don’t like how it ends, I won’t read the book.
Lately my prayer list has been quite lengthy, and God hasn’t been as swift to respond as I’d like. Like reading a new book, I’m anything but patient, and the last thing I want to do is wait to see how things turn out. The silence between my prayers and the coming to pass can be deafening.
If I knew the outcome, I could walk it more gracefully, Lord.
The Lord is good to those who wait hopefully and expectantly for Him, to those who seek Him inquire of and for Him and require Him by right of necessity and on the authority of God’s word.
Reading the end of a story allows me the grace to linger over the details in between, but it doesn’t do much for developing the virtue of patience in my character. Neither does my frustration in what appears to be Gods delay in answering my prayers.
For the eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and his ears are open to their prayer …
1 Peter 3:12
I know He hears me … So why do I have to wait?
Waiting is a part of life, and it’s Gods way of developing me spiritually. Just as an athlete much train for a sporting event, waiting is the proving ground for my faith.
Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us.
Patience lives in the details while I wait …
And patience is found in how I wait between whispering those prayers and seeing their fulfillment.
It’s found in the journey from head knowledge becoming heart knowledge.
Patience is found in filling the seemingly senseless moments with faith in a God who sees and knows the big picture, and living with the hope I have in Jesus.
Can I tell you something?
I’ve already read the end of my story and it looks like a pretty good one.
God will wipe away every tear from your eyes; and death shall be no more, neither shall there be anguish (sorrow and mourning) nor grief nor pain any more, for the old conditions and the former order of things have passed away. And He Who is seated on the throne said, See! I make all things new. Also He said, Record this, for these sayings are faithful (accurate, incorruptible, and trustworthy) and true (genuine). And He further said to me, It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To the thirsty I Myself will give water without price from the fountain (springs) of the water of Life. She who is victorious shall inherit all these things, and I will be God to her and she shall be My daughter.
(Adapted from Revelation 21:4-7)
Knowing how this story ends really does allow me the grace to slow down and enjoy the journey.
Help me to slow down and savor the details each day. Forgive me when I try to rush through the hard times. Help me to remember that patience lives in the wait, and how I rest in the knowledge that You are in every detail of my life.
In Jesus Name,
By the way, the unedited version of this post was written as I waited in line at the bank drive through.